with a lilt

busy, alone, refuted, unrequited, applauded, rescheduled. focused, alone again, kept at arm's length, semicolon, semicolon. lied to, lied to, okay, forget it. guitar playing, guitar not playing. unlucky, unlucky. some people are amazed that i'm the way i am. i don't understand. cold, but the sun feels pretty nice. polite. politely telling me that you aren't interested anymore. knowing the real reason. half-smiling. whats done doesnt compare to the thing i compare them all to. a mass of people so tiring while they shouldnt be but at the same time giving me thier energy when they shouldnt. i feel its even.
vanilla porter that still tasted like beer. now thats pretty neat.